Monday, April 12, 2010

Let the words flow like water

Bleagh.  This temp job is draining all the creativity from my soul.  BUT I WILL PERSEVERE!  DO YOU HEAR ME, YOU WILL NOT WIN!  *endminirant*

A sleek shadow,
There at the edge of your vision,
Alternately pacing reclining lurking.
A flash of eyes, slow blinking staring
You feel like a hunted animal
You are just prey, reeking of fear,
Quaking knees, nervous gestures, heart in your throat, tasting your pulse
breathingsofastyou'llpassout
You're not in any wild, untamed place in nature
You're in "civilization"

Don't know where that came from, but I kinda like it.  ^^

Okay, and another belated paragraph.

"That's when you realize you only have one redeeming quality."

Lazy.  Obstinate. Bitch.  Where do you get it from?  Why, from you, dear parent, from you.  I'm human, just like you.  I have your flaws and I have my own.  Stupid.  You act like you're two. I'll never be more than that to you.  Those arguments where you feel like you're more than inferior, that reduce you to helpless tears and make you scream until your throat is raw.  And still you don't get anywhere except tired, and angry, and puffy eyed, and looking for a place to cool down (even if you know you'll still be angry the next day).  Those times when you hurt someone without meaning it.  Or when you do mean it, you're cruel on purpose, crushing someone else so that you might (for a fleeting moment) feel better about yourself.  Ignoring someone just because they're annoying you or because you don't feel like talking to them.  That's when you realize you only have one redeeming quality.  Whatever it is: a good sense of humor, a generous spirit, your own utter lack of perfection, the ability to hold onto yourself in times of adversity... Whatever it is, it makes you you.

2 comments:

  1. very nice, rish! :)

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  2. I've had this in my reader for days and now I'm regretting not reading it earlier. The paragraph packs a real punch! It's really great!

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